SurrenderNever give up?Is that what you taught?Keep fighting till the end?Clear your mind erase every though?You say it so easily,It roles off your tongue,But I've been through hell and back,Yet you've done nothing wrong.You push me harder,Every battle, I fight with pride,Scars never heal,He said he'd be by my side.No emotion no weakness,I tried my best to subside,No crying no memories,When everyone died.Tears, over flowing,Weak? for feeling pain?I love my one comfort,this time it wasn't the rain.Its not my fault,Yet you prove me wrong?I'm tired of fighting,And the wars just begun.It's so simple,I'll just stop trying to win,I have no more will power,Just judge all my sins.A terrifying peace,That comes with surrender,I guess in the end,No one needs a defender.Its over, I'm done,I've drank from the cup,I'm sorry sensai,This is me giving up.Alexias-Ashley
Hidden Strength?Say what you will,it won’t change the past.Even if I had memories of it,your words would not cure the loneliness in my soul.I have listened long enough to the whispers in the shadows to know,my emptiness cannot be filled by mere words.I need something to make me whole,but everything I have tried just emphasizes my patheticness.Keep your empty words,empty gestures,and false sympathy.I WILL NOT be mocked!Oh, I know you, whispers,insidious voices planting thoughts of worthlessness in my mind.I can’t change the past,and my future is murky,but I can’t give in.Even when everything is falling apart,I can’t let go.
Why I Can't Love YouWhen I was littleI sewed my heart upon my sleeveWith quick little stitchesAnd a bright smile….Yet I was teased for such a thing.So I ripped it off like a bandaidAnd swallowed it whole.But it went down the wrong tubeAnd I haven’t found it since.
it's one AMit’s one AMit’s pitch blacki thought i heard your voicei turned to the leftand flinchedas i was forced to forgetit was a ghost of youa silly thought in my headso i covered myselfand went back to bed